Shoes by Siren; Dress designed and made by myself; Clutch by Sisley; Accessories by Forever New and Lovisa.

A few photos from Formal last night.
Coming home from school, and knowing you having so little time to get ready for such a big night, that was definitely a worry. Getting ready was fun, thank for the make-up Rachel, I love you.

The night was different from how I had expected it to be, but overall it was a good night, although shit went down, but then again the slut brough it all upon herself. Some of the people there were the sweetest. Basically everyone there was 180cm+, which totally sucks when you're only 165cm with heels. Everyone looked amazing; there were few dresses I fell in love with, and the boys look so cute suited up.

And you,
To be honest, I don't know what I want, or what you want anymore either. Stop playing around. Because from this point, you're no longer worth fighting for.

Where is the love?

I'm slowly pulling myself together. I have exams all of this week, and I'm not quite sure on how I'm going to cope. But I know that you're going to right beside me, as per usual. Keep me strong, and keep my head held high, please John.

I think I was overdressed for church, but I do not care. After mass, I decided to stay back, 'cos Andrew was being a rat, and also because Katrina and Simon were staying. We filled ourselves with food, and then had a little photo shoot session. Keeping it all natural. Can't you tell from the photos? Then Lil David came and picked me up. Thanks babe, hehe.

Time to go and try and study. I need to concentrate and focus.
I'm really missing you, and it hurts too much.

I hope you all enjoyed your weekend lovelies. xx

Trashed and Vodka.

Yesterday, I barely slept. But then woke up at 7am, to get ready for my uncle's funeral. I spent the day at church for his final mass, and then back to Rookwood Cemetery, yet again. He was getting cremated, after the ceremony, everyone went to the back to communicate with each other over tea/coffee/food for a wake. It was too much for me to handle, with everything that was already going on, so I went for a walk. And tried to set my mind to Alax's grave. I eventually found my way there.

I spent about half an hour sitting beside him, talking and letting a lot out. I could feel that John was there too. Remembering back to Alax's burial, when I was crying on his shoulder. I left them a bundle of roses, and singular lilies. I really miss you boys. It's all finally sinking in. I'm sure I'll be fine. I'm going to set my mind to it, and pull through. Promise.

I came home, and went straight to Hornsby to visit my aunty, so she could fix my braces. I was absolutely dead tired. But still pulled my lazy ass out to David's 20th birthday bash. It was a good night, overall. Anthony Merlin, you are beautiful, and I love you. Thank you for everything. It's been God knows how many years, 8-9-10? and you've still stood by me.

Do you guys like my costume? I made it. :-$ with the help of mama of course!

PS. Excuse the photos. Blame it on the alcohol. The punishment was "if you don't dress up, you have to take at least 3 absinthe shots straight". David wanted to watch me suffer, so strangled me and convinced me to drink it, and a whole load of other alcohol. Phong is still surprised over how I'm still standing after consuming so much.

You know it's better on the other side.

You’ve always been there for me, having my back, through basically everything. You told me whenever I needed anything that you would always be one call away, and you always have been, when times were rough, or when I just needed someone to annoy. You made me laugh and smile when things were hard, and looked out for me like your baby sister.

Teasing me was always something you did, and it would without a doubt always put a smile on my face and make my day, from this day on all your jokes will still make me and Anthony giggle and laugh like dick-heads. You were gone to soon, but truth is, you’re in a better place now, without any worries. You’re alongside with Alax, Robson and the rest of your family and brothers. Don’t party the heavens down too hard, yeah?

I’m glad that I got to speak to you, one last time, before you left so soon. One minute we were joking, the next you’re gone. I guess seeing you and catching up this weekend for my 8th birthday isn’t going to go to plan.

Waking up this morning and finding out, I hoped that it wasn’t true. Sitting in the first two periods praying and hoping that you were okay. But hearing the truth, made me cry. I didn’t think it would hurt this much.

Thank you for everything, honestly. I hope that through this, everyone else will open their eyes, and realize there’s so much more to life. Karma will get them boys back. You were always so strong, I promise to stay strong. Every memory I’ve had with you, will be kept and cherished.
I’ll see you soon, yeah?

I'm going to keep telling myself that although you're gone physically, you're still around mentally and spiritually. I don't think you'd ever had a second thought about how much you mean to me. But you do now, watching these tears fall from my eyes.

Whenever I look at the photo of your tattoo, I'll always smile. Why? The day you uploaded and tagged Christine as the lotus on your back, I asked you "does that make me the little one sitting on your shoulder?" your reply was something along the lines of me being a 2 year old, as per usual. We spoke on msn and had a few laughs as per usual. You think you're a big cunt, saying "you’re small enough to fit on my shoulder just like that little flower, princess!”

I love you, John Wisniewki. :-$ You’ll always be in my heart; then, now and always, like they say, gone but never forgotten, “for real brother” ♥

PS. Look after yourself up there, just like you looked after us all down here.

I've decided to stay in today, the weather is wonderful, but I'm feeling lazy, and my cute little cousins are over. For the past 2 hours, I've been procrastinating and drawing+designing a dress for my friend's formal. I'm continuously changing my mind, I think I'll end up naked on the night. Let's hope not! Right now, I'm falling for nude pink and black!

At first, I was going to stick with the Sherri Hill dress, here, but it's simply too much considering it's not even my own formal and would be much more fitted for my godbrother(s)' wedding. Next preference this this ASOS dress, here. I might still have the liking of it, and work with that. Or the dresses I've already got hanging in my wardrobe.

I really like the dress I've designed, let's just hope mum agrees with it, and it turns out the way I want it to be.

By Chance.

French Connection UK T-Shirt; Wrangler Hi-Cheeky shorts; Nike Gladiator Shoes

The weather is beautiful today, if I wasn't so lazy, I would be at Parramatta right now, or at least Bondi Beach. I want this weather, all the time. Please!

I woke up this morning, and remembered that I left my shoes in Mum's car after picking them up from the beautiful best-friend's place, so I grabbed the first pair of shorts on my rack, changed. Ran downstairs, and got my shoes. They're so cute, and I love them. They're perfect for raves, and absolutely comfortable.

It's my birthday coming up in 3 days, and unfortunately I can not party this year, as it falls smack-bang right in the middle of my exams. Not really, it's a week before, but I need my brain-cells. I would've done something today, but I felt like saying home, I'm so lazy. But I have my study books and notes out.

Hopefully, I get the iPhone 4 for my birthday this year, as I got my beautiful Rose-Gold E72 at the beginning on October.

Enjoy your weekend, my lovelies. x

PS. Thank you best-friend.

Heels by Robert Robert.

My absolute favourite pair of heels in the world. Okay, not really. Just out of my little collection. They're so comfortable, cute, and out of the ordinary. I could walk in the for hours, and dance until I fall dead asleep.

Like a Blizzard.

I had the day off school today, I didn't do much. I was suppose to start my textiles assignment, but I procrastinated. I really want to drop it, but it's one of my strongest subjects, and I don't want to find another subject and lack half way, considering all electives run for a 2 year course.

It's my birthday next week, but I really don't feel like doing anything for it anymore. I have Savage which I could attend for the best-friend, considering he's djing. And then David's 20th dress-up party, I'm still lost in ideas of what to dress up as. All I want for my birthday is a heap of money. I'm still saving up for a new phone - that's if my dad doesn't get me one for my birthday. Considering the AUS dollar is higher than the US dollar at the moment, my mum and I decided to shop online - once again. I'm on the verge of purchasing the Alexander Wang Brenda Mini bag, Alexander Wang Brenda, or the Alexander Wang Coco Duffel in tan.

Exams are just around the corner, I think I should start studying, especially with Maths since there's a lot of content, and I need to pull my act together, to remain in Advanced Extension. It's official, that I'll be going to Adelaide and Melbourne at the end of the year, and Hawaii and the States once again next Christmas.

I was on Sherri Hill looking at dresses, and fell in love with this one here. I remembered I had my Cooper Street dress from a few years backs. I love how I still fit everything. Teeny Tiny is what I am. It's another preference for formal, but I'm going to stick with my Sass and Bide baby.

Tryin' to get my Usher on, I can let it burn.

I am falling in absolute love - head over heels, for maxi skirts. They are perfect for spring and summer. I am literally going to go, buy fabric, and make about a million of them in every colour and print that catches my eyes and fit my desire. I love maxi, 'cos it makes me look taller, apparently.

On a positive note, I have no school tomorrow 'cos it's a pupil free day. :-) It will give me time to start and complete my stupid textiles assignment, and study for my exams.

drink in london, dance in paris.

Friday night was kept cool and relaxing, catching up with my beloveds’ who I haven’t seen since 8 months ago. I found a place where I can get away, relax, and be myself. I’m going to spend as much time as I can there, to study and clear my mind, preparing myself for my examinations.

I spent today shopping with my cousin/aunty for her year 10 formal dress. We literally took every decent dress off the rack just to find a nice one that she liked. I bought a simple maxi-dress^, it was only because I was upset they didn’t have my size in this beautiful Staple Maxi dress. But I don’t mind it, considering I’m trying to get heaps of dresses for this Summer.

I have a long weekend, thank the lord. I’m going to get off tumblr/blogspot, and whatever networking sites I’m on now, complete my textiles assignment, and watch movies. Hopefully LD comes over and takes me to eat some Krispy Kreme, hehe.
Enjoy the rest of your weekend, lovelies. x

Mistakes.

Everyone makes mistakes, and clearly you were mine.

I've decided on wearing this dress by Sass&Bide to the formal, considering it's been sitting in my wardrobe for about 3 months now, I'll use formal as an excuse to wear it out. I've lacked enthusiasm and excitement for it at the moment, but hopefully I'll have an adrenaline rush the day before, and of course panic and rush the hour before, when we're getting ready.

Clueless.

I'm clueless in deciding which dress I should wear for Fairvale's year 10 formal.

The weather is kind of horrible today, and I'm not sure if I'm going into work. I have to wait for my manager to call. But I have to head to Liverpool to pick up my glasses, and maybe head to Parramatta if my cousin is bothered to find a formal dress for her. After fighting, and fussing I've decided I will attend the formal, just not with you.

On another note, I really need to edit my blog and this whole HTML thing. It's only showing me half photos. *cries

Genie in a bottle.

I'm still unsure on how this whole HTML thing works and what not, but I'm going to give it a try. Make progress and hopefully not give up. I'll still use my tumblr as a mood-board for inspirations etc.

School's back and I don't mind it at all, just not yet. I don't think I'll be posting on this as frequently as I post on my tumblr, as I wanted to use this for out-fit posts and also inspiration. I'm absolutely terrible at photography, so please bare with me.

Thank you, a million and one Vivienne Kongvongsa.
PS: Pay a visit onto her blog, she is absolutely amazing.

Delusional.

Test Run.

This is hard.